In my senior year in high school, I was thrilled and honored to be selected as the guitar player for the state select jazz stage band. It was a dream fulfilled to play with the top jazz musicians in the state. Rehearsals were scheduled every evening for one month culminating in a public concert. On the eve of the first rehearsal, my calculus teacher informed me of a potential conflict. In preparation for the AP exam, this teacher strongly recommended that all of his students meet every evening for one month prior to the exam, and take previous AP exams as practice exams. Although it was not mandatory, in the vernacular of this teacher, it was definitely understood as such.
I had a dilemma. Both events were not mandatory but both were related to my assigned classes in school. After several hours of deliberation and much angst, I informed the state select stage band committee that I would withdraw from the event. I reasoned that in my long view of life, doing well on an AP exam would benefit me more than the jazz band. Was I right? I don’t know. As a physician, calculus was an essential prerequisite for medical school. As a guitar player, I have played professionally, taught students, and lead worship in my church.
I am thankful that I was given the opportunity to participate in both events. At that time, I spoke to family and friends for advice. But ultimately, I had to decide. There was no right or wrong answer. This life decision was made along shades of gray, not black and white. But either decision would lead to pain and regret.
Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established.
Proverbs 16:3 (ESV)
The heart of man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps.
Proverbs 16:9 (ESV)
A few years later, through God’s grace and mercy, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. Gradually, I learned to trust and depend upon God for my decision making. These two verses help me to navigate the many decisions and choices I make everyday. These decisions are often made along shades of gray and the choices may lead to some pain. Like my decision in high school, I am grateful for wise counsel from family and friends. But I am most grateful for the guidance from God. I commit and plan, but He establishes my plans and steps. And He give me His peace once the decision is made.
Praise God for His faithfulness to me!
Love and trust the Lord; seek His will in your life.