There are certain people I have met that, very simply, rub me the wrong way. They did things like snide comments about how they couldn’t share information with me because it was privileged, even though I was working on the same committee with them. Sometimes it was name dropping, always making sure I knew they were far better connected with other important individuals than I was. The common thread was these people all reminded me of a childhood nemesis named Jake. He took great pleasure in making my life miserable, tormenting me with a plethora of mind games.
“They are just like Jake!” I once concluded when I interacted with these people. But upon further reflection I realized, they are just like me! The same faults that I saw in these people were also mine. Oh, I would deny that I did the selfishness of my actions, convincing myself that I was not as bad as these others. Shades of grey, but I always knew the truth. They were my mirror and I didn’t like my own reflection. I refused to take ownership of my sins.
There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
Romans 8:1 (ESV)
When I look in the mirror, I don’t like seeing my own faults and sins staring back at me. For many years, I would beat myself up and blame others. But when I confessed and repented of my sins and accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, that all changed. I began to understand the depth of my sins and depravity. I desperately needed a Savior who could take away my sins and my guilt. I no longer had to condemn myself but could confess and repent of my sins to God who took the punishment for the sins of all mankind.
My problem with my attitude toward other people was not bad childhood memories of Jake. The problem is me. Thanks be to God that He unconditionally loves and accepts me, does not condemn me, and continues to transform me into the image of His Son, Jesus Christ.
Just like Jake? No. Just like me.
Love and trust the Lord; seek His will in your life.